making cookies and talking about my feelings

hi everybody it’s me Emily and today we
are making but we little chocolate chip
cookies this isn’t going to be an
exciting video because I’m just using a
mix but you know I I’m sad and I’m tired
and I want to eat cookies so here we are
I’m all ready we’re going to be positive
we’re being positive we’re happy for
some context you know I’m apparently
going through a breakup I want to eat
cookies at this time so that’s what I’m
doing I feel like I have such negative
energy in this video I need to cheer up
it’s all good you know like it’s it’s
okay because it ended nice
it’s like we’re leaving you know for
college it’s gonna have to tap it
eventually might as well make it now so
that’s that’s all it is but I have been
wanting cookies for the past couple days
and I haven’t got at the courage that’s
not the work the motivation maybe to
make them so now it’s happening I feel
like this is actually gonna be a much
shorter video than I realized because
making cookies with it with a mix
doesn’t take that long but whatever I
want to talk I love a chat and I’m
really bad at making the cookies so
that’ll take a while I I’m entering a
very new chapter in my life
you know I leave for college in a little
less than two months I think I moved
into September 14th and it’s currently
July 24th so a month two months –
and it’s very weird I feel like I have
to figure out a lot about myself I have
to learn a lot about myself and very
little time I don’t know who I am you
know who can relate you know I feel so
here just talking to nobody
like no you’re gonna have to go through
this much later and like watch myself
talk about real things and like cut out
parts and like edit parts pick parts to
keep it that’s weird yeah yeah I don’t
know it’s exciting for sure I’m really
excited for I really officially announce
this I guess but I’m going to do it Cal
Poly San Luis Obispo and I’m so excited
tilted fair it’s the coolest most
beautiful place in the world I love the
campus I love my roommate
I’ve already been like talking to people
I have orientation this weekend that’s
cooled to the point got so excited about
that part but I don’t know there’s just
like so many things about living there
that I was so excited for but I’m also
like not ready at all I did my first
like round of dorm shopping couple weeks
to go we’re really excited about the
stuff I got it’s very cute I got a lot
of think plans definitely more than I
should
got some organization type things but
like I have so much left to get it’s
just crazy because hey I’m one of my
last friends leaving like most people
are leaving way before me my friend Sam
you know Sam she’s leaving August 5th
I haven’t been out here for the last
night before she leaves tomorrow she’s
been leaving so soon I’m so sad about it
and like she was gone like the whole
summer
so I barely got to hang out with her I’m
really excited for her she’s very
excited I know she’s gonna do amazing
all my friends are going to do so well
it’s so crazy I don’t even have to be
afraid French money you know like I feel
like I should like I’m scared I’m
terrified for myself but like all my
friends I know are like they’re gonna
make friends so quickly and like they’re
gonna do really well in their classes
and they’re gonna know they’re we’re on
campus and like a.j I’m so excited for
everybody and everybody’s like going to
cool places like Caroline’s going at
UCLA
that’s insane Olivia’s going to Santa
Cruz that’s a beautiful place
like to go there Sam is going to
Oklahoma which is you know it’s a state
but that’s okay Ponyboy to North
Carolina I’ve heard good things about
there I’ve never been there but I’m you
know I’m excited to visitor
it’s insane Wow you know I can never
make my cookies the right size they are
always make them too small but I think
that’s kind of how I like it
because it’s like you can you can eat
more cookies
you can eat more cookies and like feel
less bad like I feel like I can find
more joy like now I feel like place to
make more more massive cookie you know
it’s just like give the number of
cookies is way more fun you know you
definitely don’t know does that doesn’t
make any sense I feel like I have to
like what could I have – so I know I
feel like I should rebrand myself they
should sipping Silver’s more dramatic
than it is but like I’m going to a new
place and oh very two people going I’m
the only person from my high school
going this year
you know I I’m gonna be meeting a lot of
people I guess if I was gonna have a
chance to become a new person this would
be it so I don’t know maybe this summer
should be about rebranding myself but
like what’s gonna be my new brand You
Know Who am I I feel like this whole
video it’s just an underlying theme
Who am I I’m gonna burn myself I’m gonna
do it
what I’m gonna do now okay hey Siri hey
Siri hey Siri hey Siri Oh set a timer
for nine minutes okay I got to say I
wonder if any of might know I’m not
gonna defecate myself
thanks so much cookie dough on my hands
which doesn’t seem like it should be a
problem but it’s proving to be a bit of
a challenge I think the thing that I’m
most afraid about it’s like meeting new
people and like finding friends but at
the same time it’s kind of thing I was
most excited about there’s going to be
so many people there in like they’re all
so cool I met some people I’d open house
that’s yeah and then a lot of people and
like they’re all so nice they’re very
nice and like they care about the
environment I’m really excited about
that
now I should stop asking people to leave
comments about things because I don’t
think anybody’s gonna do it and that’s
gonna be embarrassing for me
but you know whatever she won’t like my
buns watching this going to college what
if I want to know what you’re most
excited for and most scared about you
comment look at those beauties
that is what I would golden brown around
the edges right yeah Wow okay this is
that a really good angle that I didn’t
want to adjust the tripod at all so
there’s really good obviously I look
Jeff this is phenomenal
I’m so happy
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