let’s chat & bake cookies

hey guys what’s up it is now theywelcome to my channel or well comingback to my channel so this is my I thinkfirst video of 2020 and I know that it’slong overdue I’m filming this I thinkJanuary 15th so we are so over do avideo for 2020 and I really am sorrythat it took me so long to push outcontent but I will explain all of thatas we go through chains video so fortoday’s video we’re just gonna be bakingcookies and chit-chatting just kind ofthings I want to update you on how I’vebeen feeling my youtube channeloverall I’m doing pretty well in lifeand I’m so thankful to be able to saythat but I did kind of think that wouldbe fun to bake and just to chitchat withyou guys if you are new to my channelhello my name is Nana it really doesmean the world to me that you take timeeveryday to go ahead and click on thisvideo your support means the world to meif you like this type of content thenplease let me know but in this videothumbs up and click the subscribe buttondown below if you like my channel sowithout further ado let’s get into thisvideo much to update you on in my lifethe things we’re on in my life aren’tthings that I’m exactly gonna share withthe Internet I don’t think everythingthat happens in my life needs to beshared with the Internet so I’m gonnakeep some things private and personal sobasically my first video 2020 like Isaid in the beginning I’m super sad thisis my first video of 2020 because I didhave a really fun new year’s resolutionvideo planned and I did film it but Idon’t know if I’m gonna upload itbecause I tried filming it and I justdidn’t really like the way that it hadturned out and then before Christmas Ibought myself an actual camera to usebut I’m having lots of difficulty withthis camera that I bought so I’m kind oftrying to figure that out but it’s hardto figured that out and then alsopersonal content for you guys so Ifilmed in year’s resolution video onthis new camera that I had got and I waspretty content with it I liked it I saideverything I needed to say was ready toexport it and then the camera toostarted to glitching and all of a suddenjust turned off so I got it to turn onbut as stupid as it sounds I just can’tfigure out how to like export the videoI’m having lots of difficulty exportingthe video and not that video maybe atsome point a few times but I’m gonna usethe solutions within your solution hypeis pretty much over so I don’t reallyknow what else I’d have to say about itso I guess part of that it’s just likean apology that that’s taking me so longto push out content and definitelyfrustrating as a creator because I amtrying to push out these videos becauseI do have close to my YouTube channeland YouTube is something that I loveanother thing that I didn’t want to talkabout is that I have been feelingprobably the most inadequate in YouTubeI’m trying so hard and I have all thesegreat video ideas and I just don’t knowhow to execute them and in my head Ijust chalk it up to me being a failureso then it stops me from wanting to makethese videos because I’m like it’s notgonna sound good anyway you don’t evenbother and and it’s probably not gonnaturn out the way that I want it in myhead because in my head it’s perfect andnothing goes wrong and that’s just notlife but I definitely should still liketry to make these videos um I take theacct next month super excited supernervous about that that’ll basicallydetermine if I can go to the school thatI want to go to or not so prayers onthat would really be appreciated becauseI really do want to go to this collegebut if I don’t do well on the ECT thenthat’s just not happeningso I’m gonna get this next batch ofcookies ready and just continue talkingbut like I just mentioned I take the ACto next month and honestly that wasprobably the biggest threat fir in mylife okay that’s sorry if that was anannoying sound but I’m just supernervous that I’m not gonna do well on itand I don’t exactly have our reason tobe nervous about that because I’m sothankful that I do have the materialsthat I need and then I can study andthen I basically have a way to setmyself up for success but sometimes it’sjust so hard to not get in your own headabout this stuff I’m just gonna try tolook at it and Iit’ll go well and I’ll be fine and it’llbe great but it’s kind of up to me tojust keep that mindset because if I gointo it and I think okay like this isgoing to be terrible and the chances ofit being terrible are pretty highmindset in my opinion is one of the mostimportant things whenever you’re goingto do something but honestly it’s thebiggest problem that I’m facing in mylife is the feeling of being inadequatewhich is kind of unfortunate and to becompletely honest it’s a feeling that’snot exactly a foreign concept to me I’vedefinitely felt like it before buttypically it’s feeling inadequate in onearea of my life so whether just I feelinadequate in school or I feelinadequate as a daughter or inadequateas a friend now I just feel itoverwhelming and just about every partof my life I feel like I’m not a goodfriend I feel like I’m not a gooddaughter I feel like I’m not a goodsister I feel like I’m not a goodcontent creator I feel like I’m not goodat my job and the feeling is just superoverwhelming some days I just said thatand I cry because I just feel soinadequate and in fact that’s a feelingthat a lot of people can relate to Iposted a video months ago talking abouthow I was just feeling ugly and I don’treally struggle with that as muchanymore it’s not an adequate per se inmy look I mean of course I have dayslike everybody else where I just don’tfeel pretty um and I just kind of remindmyself that I am Who I am for a reason Ilook the way that I look for a reasonand I do think so myself feel betterabout the way I look so self-care day isworking out things like that just tokind of boost my confidence but it’s notreally what I’m talking about here I’mjust kind of talking about the feelingI’m just feeling you don’t measure up atall like you’re always one step behind Imean it’s a variable littling feelingbecause it does kind of crush you itjust makes you not want to do anythingbecause it’s like I feel like no matterwhat I do I’m just gonna be inadequateand if I feel like this then why am Igonna want toI am trying to combat those feelingsbecause why I’m a big big believer andletting yourself feel things I alsodon’t think it’s healthy just to sitthere and dwell in those bad feelings solike to be completely honest right herein this moment I’m just deciding I’m notgonna let this feeling consume me I’mnot gonna let it be the only thing thatI’m allowed to feel because there’s somany good things in life and I am goodenough the way that I am and I know thatI work hard in every area of my life andI’m not gonna do everything perfectly insome days actually every day I’m goingto mess up one way or another but that’sjust our human nature as humans we makemistakes and I don’t want to get caughtup in the fact that I’ve made mistakesbecause I saw this core time picture sotoday and I really liked it and it saidyou make mistakes mistakes don’t makeyou so basically it just means as aperson of course you make mistakes butthose mistakes they don’t define you atthe end of the day what defines us asChristians is God and what God saysabout us we’re made in God’s image dadsays we’re loved – God says we’re setapart God said were chosen so yeah ifyou’re feeling this way I just wanna letyou know that I’m praying for youbecause I know that it is such adifficult spot to be in and if you’refeeling like that’s definitely go aheadand talk to somebody about it I shouldhave talked to somebody about it buthere I am putting my feelings out on theinternet instead because this ishonestly my brand at this point rightjust going on the camera and talkingabout how I’ve been feeling lately oh Ialso do want to say that your self-worthis definitely so much more and like it’snot in the way you look it’s not in yourgrades it’s not in how many instantbonds you have it’s not and how well youstick to your dietit isn’t none of those things and I feellike it’s so easy to define ourselves bythose things it’s so easy to defineourselves by our friendships by how wellwe did and fortnight game tournament Idon’t know what they’re called it’s soeasy to define ourselves by how we do itwork how we do in school how we do inthe theater how we do and whateveractivities we choose to give ourselves -it’s so easy to just get caught up andinthat you’re not more than those thingsbut you definitely are so please justremember that you are so much more thanthe activities that you do and yourproductivity does not equal your worthin the slightest bit just want to endthis video by saying if you feel thisway at all just know I am a hundred andten percent praying for you and that youare not alone in this feeling and thereit does get better sometimes it feelslike a dozen but talk to somebody aboutit deal with these feeling just ajournal about it find healthy ways tocope with the way you’re feeling sobasically this video just turned into metalking about my feelings rather than usbut can’t cookies together so I am supersuper sorry about that but I will now goahead and I will try the cookies withyou so I did make two different type ofcookies I made a chocolate chip cookieand they made a peanut butter cookieokay so this is the chocolate chipcookie it’s just a bit of it cuz it kindof broke off but they aren’t present Ireally like that one I’m not really apeanut butter cookie type of gal so I’mkind of nervous about this one yeah thisone’s okay but coz I don’t like peanutbutter cookies so it’s not my favoritebut if you say to end the video thankyou so much I love you guys so much Ihope you have a great day and I’ll talkto you later bye